Finding the Courage to Lose the Control

"Finding the Courage to Lose the Control"

Crucifixion? Resurrection? Which daunts us more?
We learn to do death pretty well. It seems in control wherever we look.
Crucifixion the Movie gets our attention. But resurrection? Barely an aberration! Life? New Way of Living? Away from Death? Scary!
Good Friday leaves us silenced. Easter Sunday leaves us speechless!
"News" source literally incredible! Beyond belief! Bereft of previous reference!

Stone builders rejecting emerging the cornerstone!
Seed surreptitiously disappearing bringing forth first of all fruits!

Dug from dregs, dispensed, disposed; nightmaring those in power,
giddily gone to bed, him done and dead; rudely awakened, him up and
multiplying! As many of him as those able to see! First here, then there,
this unsuspecting, those most unlikely, embarrassing ones --
witnesses least admissible under the Law.

Graveyard! Garden! Road to Emmaus! Tightly-locked room! Fished-out lakefront! Jesus busting out everywhere! Completely at loose and at large!
Jack out of box, cat out of bag, genie of bottle! Life out of Egypt, tomb, bondage, death! Out of all banks, breaking all banks, out of control,
in a whole other world!

Jesus now riding "excitement of rise: unexpectedness, always, of change it makes." "An irresistible sense of adventure in difference . . .
Once connection with shore is broken, journey has begun!" (Wendell Berry)

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Courage of women, approaching the tomb --

"Every mother whose Marine has come home has experienced sense of the resurrection . . . When we set eyes on them again, we count each of their fingers, like when they were newborns . . ." (Phyllis Osborne, mother)
Every mother's child coming home? . . .

Scared no longer to Death but to Life, Ghosts of Undying Love, coming in dark,

exploring the ever-unlighted before; armed only with oils, of fears, of doubts, of losses, of pains, griefs, disbeliefs; memories already fast-fading, with tomb-like finality; "closure," we say, solacing, soothing, scrapbooking, scrubbing up after.

"Jesus' resurrected body teaches that bodies matter . . . Jesus insists on his body: 'Look at my hands and my feet. See that it is I myself. Touch and see.'"

(Stephanie Paulsell) Touch giving sight to sore eyes, reviving, restoring whole view, dislodging all stones sealing tombs.